The closer I seem to come to the destination of my dreams-the further it appears to be.
I loose my sense of direction and fall often.
I still have my goal, but I have no motivation.
I am lost, confused, desperate for help.
Is there a point to be if you are not being first, being best?
Is there meaning in pain when reward does not cover it?
Is it so bad to be creating a world of amnesia for yourself when this suffering becomes unbearable?
I have no purpose...I see no light...I count no days.