May be it is not so hard to deal with all this.Perhaps its simple. You take the wrong route and pray for the right outcome.And these godforsaken grounds slip from underneath your feet and you float on, just as in a dream.Nothing matters, nothing changes, nothing evolves-everything wastes away and slowly discharges its poison into you, breaking you, making you go mad, trying to change your religion of expected normalcy.
I enjoy it.It is so simple to live when you learn to let go of the pain.
"If you want to gain everything-give everything up..."
And once more I took a walk on the roadside with the devil and he beckoned me to join him to steal time and turn it back...Far back...Far enough to outrun my humiliation.Perhaps, I think, I am loosing seconds...Perhaps I am loosing my precious mind...Perhaps.